I think I am becoming schizophrenic. I heard voices today. I feel powerless in life. I am succumbing to my old self destructive ways- self harm and a desire to use drugs. I used to be so normal. After high school I became depressed and a hermit. I see synchronicity (strong coincidence) EVERYWHERE. Not the kind of synchronicity where you're talking about about your college days and a song from that time suddenly plays on the radio. I'm talking things that just don't happen by coincidence. Things that happen in dreams that are so wildly weird and beyond what chance allows that it wakes you up. It is solipsism inducing, I am fearful that I am going to lose my grip on reality. I met a dude @ the grocery store I work at who is a lot like me and all I can think is that he is the devil.. the things he says. I'm mentally unstable forsure, but I really don't think I've entered loony territory just yet..
Not sure if this is a mental health issue, or demonic or if I'm just dreaming all of this. Help?
Not sure if this is a mental health issue, or demonic or if I'm just dreaming all of this. Help?